Life is unpredictable. We are not invincible. But there is a plan.
As much as we wish we could, we can’t control everything that happens to us. Accidents happen, mistakes happen and sometimes it just isn’t in the cards. As dancers, our bodies break down. There comes a point where your body tells you, “I can’t do this anymore. I have to slow down.” For me, my body hit that point three weeks ago and I was beyond devastated. When your body fails you, your mind takes over with worry and anxiety about the future. It’s a terrible reflex to have, but we all have it. We try so hard to stick with the plan, but sometimes it just isn’t meant to be. And that’s ok, even if it feels like the worst possible thing in the world, there is always something to be grateful for.
I haven’t been able to walk for three weeks, let alone jump or do what I love more than anything, but it happened for a reason. There’s a chance I won’t be able to walk for months. But there are other things I can do.
I can still read books that have been sitting abandoned in my “to read” list. I can still eat the best foods of summer: berries, homemade lemonade and watermelon. I can still snuggle with my sweet dog, Lily. I can still exercise and stay healthy. Finally, I can speak to all of you, something I would never have had the chance to do if it wasn’t for this darn foot of mine.
That is why I’m talking to you right now, because you may be going through an injury of your own, you may be going through an awful period in your life or even just a bad day. But it will get better. And no matter how awful it seems (been there too 🙁 ), it happened for a reason and there is something to be grateful for.
So here’s me wishing that the both of us can keep our chins up through the good and the bad.
I hope you and I will each find something to be grateful for every day, even at our worst, because there will be great days and there will be bad days.
For example, yesterday I hit a rough spot because I, fashion lover, realized that I will have to attend a fancy ceremony I was invited to, that I’ve been looking forward to for ages, with crutches and a boot as my outfit’s accessories. This probably doesn’t seem like much, but for whatever reason that little detail hit me hard.
I’m sure you’ve been there too.
For all the trouble we go through to stay positive, the tiniest straw can break the camel’s back and bring reality crashing back down.
As much as it doesn’t seem like it, it’s ok. It’s all going to be ok.
I’ve been repeating that to myself a lot lately and maybe it will help you too. It’s all going to be ok. It’s all going to be ok.
This song, Slow by Audrey Assad, has been on my mind lately and I love the lyrics below.
My faith is not a fire
As much as it’s a glow
A little burning ember
In my weary soul
And it’s not too much
It’s just enough to give me hope
Have faith and have hope,
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”