So here I am, on this unexpected journey.
I didn’t ask for it, and I would really not like to be on it right now, but that doesn’t change anything.
I would give the world to be at my summer intensive right now, pushing my body to its limit and challenging myself more than I ever have. To be able to dance right now and work on my technique. Heck, even to be able to walk.
But I can’t. I’m stuck in this chair resting and waiting. It’s the waiting that kills me. While I’m grateful to have extra time to watch ballet videos and read books and work on my blog, it isn’t my first choice. Not by far. I’m not saying this to garner sympathy, it’s just the truth. If you are going through a rough period right now too, you know.
It just feels good, to get it out for a moment. I’m one of those people that will hold everything in, even if I’m at bursting point, because I don’t want to bother anyone with my thoughts. So thank you for listening for a bit.
That brings me to my next point,
Surround yourself with supportive people
This can make such a difference with getting through your rough period.
I’m so grateful for the people that have been helping me and keeping me busy while I’m injured. For my mom and my best friend, who listen to me blab on and on. Not much makes me feel better than when I’ve talked with my mom or had a “rant session” over text with my best friend. I’m grateful for my family friend who helped me to get into Pilates, which is amazing, whether or not you’re injured! Additionally thankful for my family and close friend who keeps me occupied with things I can do, and who always seem to stay positive! Finally, I’m so so thankful for my mom, who has been stuck in all the doctor’s offices, long car rides, and cooped up inside with me. She’s been with me through all the bad news and the bad days, but has always been an uplifting spirit.
An injury update
I really love following along with people’s journeys, may that be an injury, vacation, or home decorating process, so this is why I’m sharing my journey with you. Unfortunately, seven weeks in, my foot has not changed for the better. We have booked a surgery date — for the beginning of August, with the understanding that we can cancel it if there is improvement. But it’s not looking good. I didn’t originally want surgery (who would?) but at this point, I just want to be fixed. Even if that means a longer recovery time. Luckily I do feel very, very confident in my surgeon though, he is awesome! You can read more about my injury story and accessory navicular syndrome here.
No matter what you’re going through, have faith and don’t let anything hold you down
Today’s lyrics are from Gravity by Sara Bareilles
but you’re neither friend nor foe
though I can’t seem to let you go
the one thing that I still know
is that you’re keeping me down
Have a great week!