Tomorrow is another day.
Right now everything might be cracked and broken inside, but it can and will be fixed. It can be healed.
In five days, I will have been unable to walk for a month. With little to no improvement at all so far, that fact is pretty depressing. But in the next five days, I could heal a lot. By June 27th, I could be pain-free. That would be awesome. And that happy day will come, even if it isn’t that soon.
But in the meantime, I have some exciting stuff coming up that I can focus on.
Tomorrow I get to go into one of my favorite cities for a fancy ceremony
and I’m also starting a new blog series that I’m very excited for 🙂
My best friend comes back from a summer intensive this weekend *hi G!*
I have another doctor’s appointment Tuesday (praying that I get good news)
And I have some fun day trips planned for the next few weeks
Fourth of July!!!!!! (enough said 🙂 )
But for right now,
there are some changes you can make to feel better
- flowers! I looooove flowers, they can honestly change the whole atmosphere of a room. Whenever I have flowers around me, I instantly feel happier. They are beautiful to look at and if you are stuck inside for whatever reason, they bring a little of the outdoors to you. Especially now, during summer, you can load up with flowers on the cheap if there are any wildflowers near you. I currently have four vases/Mason jars filled with them in my room, is that bad?
- goals. When you are in a rough patch, goals can be super helpful to get you out of a rut. Especially if you are anything like me, being productive and active is a must, no matter my physical state. It can be super hard when you are immobile or broken, but you can still make and achieve goals. They can be as simple as reading a book that you’ve had your eye on, or finally writing that blog post (guilty). Heck, it can even be as simple as taking a shower! Believe me, when I finally convince myself to shower each day, I feel great. You wouldn’t think so, but taking a shower without putting weight on one leg is suuuper difficult. Although I’d like to add that I’ve gotten a lot better at it.
- change something you can control While being broken or unable to do what you love most stinks, there are benefits. I’ve always wondered what my hair would look like short, but never thought I would cut it for years, because all I’ve ever wanted to do was dance. It is still all I want to do, but this stupid injury gave me an opportunity. With no need to have my hair in a bun, I could finally see what I would like with short(er) hair. So I had it cut yesterday. And lemme tell you, it felt good. (Pics above with a billowing skirt 🙂 ). I was sad to see the long pieces of my hair be swept away, but man it felt good to make a change. Not a change that was chosen for me, but something I could control. Chopping six inches off made me feel lighter, both because of the weight of my hair, and the lightness I now feel from actually doing something I wanted to. A haircut is a little thing, but for someone who hasn’t been able to control much recently, it feels like a really big thing.
Today’s lyrics – Kaleidoscope Heart by Sara Bareilles
All the colors
Of the rainbow
Hidden ‘neath my skin
Hearts have colors
Don’t we all know?
Red runs through our veins
Feel the fire burning up
Inspire me with blood
Of blue and green
I have hope
Inside is not a heart
But a kaleidoscope